Sad & Grief

My grandma passed on peacefully on the 3rd of November 2009. I cannot explain the grief and pain I felt when I got the news. I just finished my lunch and was getting ready to head home when my dad told me grandma had passed away. I didn't know what to say or what to think or what to do. I just stood in one spot and I was stoned for a few seconds. I wanted to go to the hospital as soon as possible but my dad didn't let me. I don't know if this sounds mean but I kinda thank my dad for not letting me go because my cousin told me that my grandma came home in a bag!! I mean, if I were to see that really happened I would...I just don't know. It would be horrible. I almost shed tears when I heard it let alone see it.

The pain I felt when I saw my grandpa sob and tear and cried broke my heart and shattered it into pieces. I love both of my grandparents so so much and it really kills me to see him like that. Actual tears rolled down my grandpa's cheeks and the moans and groans he made while crying, it really broke my heart.

I miss her so much. So much that I don't even know how to describe it. Really. I still cannot believe she's not here anymore. I still remember all the times when I visit her, she would have a smile on her face all the time. I love the way she laughed and everytime I see her, I know everything would be okay and I can be happy around her.

I know you're in a better place,
And everytime I see your face,
I would still shed a tear,
Even though your not here,
I would still hear,
Your wonderful laughter;
I hope you're happy,
I know you are,
Just please take care of yourself,
And know that I will always love you,
I miss you.

Grandma this post is ESPECIALLY for you.

LittleMissSunshine, (Your granddaughter who misses you a lot)
XOXO